Poo or get off the pot!

First:  I'm officially a civilian. 5 years ago Sunday I went to boot camp.  It seems like yesterday and yet at the same time it feels like it was forever ago.  Longer blog post coming soon about how I feel about this.

Second: Forgive me for the word vomit that is about to happen.  I didn't really think too much about this post until I sat down to write it so I'm sure it's all over the place!

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My husband HATES when I cut myself down.  And I'll admit I do it damn near every day.  I hate the way I look.  All the time.  I hate the way I look in clothes, I hate the way I look naked, I hate the way I look even when I'm all dolled up.  I HATE THE WAY I LOOK!

It isn't all about weight... but most of it is.  I could give you a thousand reasons why I'm overweight.  Eating healthy is expensive.  Being a mother isn't kind to a body.  An under-active thyroid is a bitch.

But really... most of the day I sit on the couch and do absolutely nothing.  I haven't really worked out since my last PRT and I have no more of those in my future so it's time to motivate myself.  I don't have a reason other than myself to get thin.  But it's more than that.  I want to be healthy, too.

We have a cruise coming up in May and I would like nothing more than to be comfortable in my own skin.  I don't want that dreaded feeling of wondering what I'm going to look like in photos I'm tagged in on facebook.  I want to be thinner and healthier before I get pregnant again or all I'm going to do is pack on even more weight.

I'm not sure how I'm going to do it yet, but I AM GOING TO DO IT.  I've already started cooking and eating so much healthier.  This week's menu is made up of all skinnytaste recipes so the eating part is taken care of.  Time to start exercising. I hate exercising... mainly because I'm out of shape.  I used to love working out and I even used to love running.  Now I loathe it.

I'm confident I can get there again.  Even the longest of journeys begins with a single step.

Maybe putting it out there for the world to see will motivate me to get my butt in gear.  And all these cute clothes I want to wear on the cruise!

MILF body here I come!

Finally!

This apartment is finally starting to come together!

You know what you get when you try to cram a 4 bedroom house with an attached garage into a two bedroom apartment with two closets and two kitchen cabinets?

Something out of hoarders.  It really has been quite frightening!

Justin took a bunch of our stuff to storage and since the bedrooms are unpacked and *mostly* organized we were able to move some boxes in there to get out of the way long enough to move some furniture around.  I'm starting to feel a lot more optimistic about the possibility of making it a comfortable home for the next few months.

At first we thought we wouldn't hang anything on the walls but now I think we must or all this white may induce an aneurysm.  I ordered some new canvases... one of our latest family photos, one of our favorite photo of boo and one of our nephew.  I can't wait to display them!

Sorry I don't have anything more exciting to discuss today... I think the important thing is that I actually posted!

Enjoy the photos below!  (These are the ones I ordered on canvas... although two of them are in the header!)

Baby bear enjoying bath time.  <3

Our sweet nephew, Eli.

Us.  :-)

New...

New year, new job, new state, new home... all come together to give me MORE time for silly things like blogging.  So, here's to hoping I can get back into the swing of things in 2012.  :-)