First: I'm officially a civilian. 5 years ago Sunday I went to boot camp. It seems like yesterday and yet at the same time it feels like it was forever ago. Longer blog post coming soon about how I feel about this.
Second: Forgive me for the word vomit that is about to happen. I didn't really think too much about this post until I sat down to write it so I'm sure it's all over the place!
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My husband HATES when I cut myself down. And I'll admit I do it damn near every day. I hate the way I look. All the time. I hate the way I look in clothes, I hate the way I look naked, I hate the way I look even when I'm all dolled up. I HATE THE WAY I LOOK!
It isn't all about weight... but most of it is. I could give you a thousand reasons why I'm overweight. Eating healthy is expensive. Being a mother isn't kind to a body. An under-active thyroid is a bitch.
But really... most of the day I sit on the couch and do absolutely nothing. I haven't really worked out since my last PRT and I have no more of those in my future so it's time to motivate myself. I don't have a reason other than myself to get thin. But it's more than that. I want to be healthy, too.
We have a cruise coming up in May and I would like nothing more than to be comfortable in my own skin. I don't want that dreaded feeling of wondering what I'm going to look like in photos I'm tagged in on facebook. I want to be thinner and healthier before I get pregnant again or all I'm going to do is pack on even more weight.
I'm not sure how I'm going to do it yet, but I AM GOING TO DO IT. I've already started cooking and eating so much healthier. This week's menu is made up of all skinnytaste recipes so the eating part is taken care of. Time to start exercising. I hate exercising... mainly because I'm out of shape. I used to love working out and I even used to love running. Now I loathe it.
I'm confident I can get there again. Even the longest of journeys begins with a single step.
Maybe putting it out there for the world to see will motivate me to get my butt in gear. And all these cute clothes I want to wear on the cruise!
MILF body here I come!
It's like you are writing my own blog for me, Danna, lol. I am horribly afraid I will jinx it if I tell anyone, but since we're in the same boat with the whole thyroid/trying to lose all the weight before starting on baby #2 thing, I'll let you in on a little secret: I've lost 15 lbs. I'm still not anywhere close to where I would like to be, but there is a tiny bit of light at the end of the tunnel. I'm not sure what did it for me: new meds, no more breast feeding, or adding an hour of exercise (up to almost 3, now... ugh), but it's happening, lol.
ReplyDeleteI have found that the best way for me to exercise during the winter is at home. Last year, we bought a stationary bike from amazon for about $125. I would get on it for 45 minutes here and there when it was raining and I couldn't go walk/jog, but recently I started doing at least 2 hours a day. I have it set up in the living room, so E can play and have her breakfast while I watch tv and work out. So far, so good--maybe something to think about?
I know you don't want to hear this but I think you're absolutely beautiful and I know Justin does too. Having said that- I know exactly how you feel. I really think skinnytaste recipes are FANTASTIC! I signed myself up for a baby bootcamp workout class but have yet to attend our first class... ughhhh where's the motivation I need?!
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