The Stumberg Family

Isn't being a mother hard?  Does it make sense that it's both easier and harder than I thought it would be?  Those first few weeks are a blur now.  I remember how crazy everything was.  I remember that I hurt and that I was totally exhausted and that me and Justin fought more in that first month than we've fought our entire relationship.  (From the exhaustion!) But I think now I'm at that point that I can look back on it all and laugh.

It's easier without Justin here than I thought it would be.  I think I was worried about being the one getting up with him at night EVERYtime, and having to give him every bath for six months, changing every diaper.  It would be nice to have someone I could just call and ask for help but I must admit; having my sweet boy is a fantastic distraction from how much I miss Justin. 

There are certain times during the day when it gets totally overwhelming.  Mostly after the baby is asleep and I'm getting ready for bed, and then the drive to work after I drop him off at daycare.  That's when I feel the most lonely because I don't have much to concentrate on. 

Anyway, I didn't intend to go on for so long.  I just can't believe we're a quarter of the way to 1 already!  I've never been more stressed, exhausted or frustrated in my life.  But I've also never been more happy, proud or fulfilled!  Being a mother really, truly is the best thing I've ever done!
Here's a quick pic of my big 3 month old before I hit the hay:

"MOOOOM!  I DO love Dad, but do I HAVE to wear hearts????"